My Bladder and Me.

Seriously, what is up with my bladder? I don't know if it is the fact that I am getting older or the fact that I have given birth to two kids but this bladder is not what it use to be ( My bladder is probably saying look who's talking). I remember my bladder being a power house. I was able to enjoy myself at any place or anytime, able to hold it in for hours and hours. I didn't have to break that seal. I could drink as much water (or alcohol depending on the event) and I didn't have to break that seal. I was proud of my bladder would show it off at times but that has changed. I can't go on an hour without having to go. I can drink a glass of water and 30 min later I am an open faucet, a river maybe and 30 min after that.... I will go again. I mean I sometimes go so much that I often wonder where it's coming from when I only have had a glass of water (or wine). I can just look at water, or see a river or picture of an ocean and suddenly nature calls. And I am in a race to find a rest room. I tell my bladder "work with me". I have no time to stop every hour to Pee, I am nonstop all day that sometimes I avoid drinking water because I know I will be going nonstop. When I am at work in the field, there is no time for bathroom breaks and sometimes the places I go to are not that nice to even want to use the rest room. And when I am at home, between the kids, house work, cooking and so on, bathroom breaks are optional. That is where the problem has come in. I CANNOT HOLD IT IN ANY LONGER. I mean between us girls even a sneeze or an out of control laugh is set to make her release a bit. What's next, "DEPENDS" for this 35 year old. Hmmmm.....might be a good idea, solves the problem I think. My husband calls me "pipi loco", which in spanish mean "pee pee crazy" (he stole it from my dad who loves to tease the woman in my family about us always having to go) Obgyn visits, no problem. I can supply them with enough urine for the year. Sometimes, I think I may be pregnant because that is when I would go that often but no I am not pregnant. My bladder still thinks we are pregnant....it didn't get the memo that its business as usual. I have also noticed my friends having the same issue. In the past, the trips to the ladies room where all the girls would go to the bathroom together is no longer about supporting each other and hanging out more. Now, all the ladies actually have to use the restroom. It seems from having these babies my body along with my bladder have gone crazy. Let's not get started on the upper part of my body, my "friends" up North are not what they use to be either. They were never these "pamela anderson" beauties but they did have support. Although after having my first, they were perfect, just the right size and perfectly firm. My mother-in-law noticed my beauties after getting home from the hospital "wow, where did those come from" she said. Fabio.....lets just say he was pleased. But No, that is gone after breastfeeding two kids. It was such a tease, like "this is what you will never have". They had their 20 min of fame. Now, They are more like balloons that have lost their helium air. Sucked dry.......literally..... poor girls. What can I say it's either my age or the two boys I have had but in reality it's the new me and Fabio still seems to dig me. I don't think my bladder will ever be like it use t o be but neither will I.

No sick days

Oh, I often remember how it felt when I was single and had to deal with getting over a cold. I just laid in my bed and waited to feel better. Got the needed rest to get back out onto the world and be Me again. When I got married, that changed but it was better, I had my Fab taking care of me. When I had Lucas it was a little harder but it just meant Fab would take care of Lucas while mommy rested. Now with Noah, things have drastically changed, it's every man for himself. With two children, it's a parent per child (can't believe I'm thinking of adding a third). It's no longer "mommy needs rests", it's mommy can't be sick. Like today, I woke up feeling a horrible sinus headache and was coughing while losing my voice. I felt awful. Fab let me sleep but I heard my Noah coughing up as well. Lucas runs in and jumps on my bed and says "mommy wake up Noah needs you". I wanted to say "isn't daddy there, daddy will have to do for today". All I said was "I am sorry baby mommy is feeling sicky, daddy will take care of it. Then I heard Fab say to Lucas to go with him and let me rest. Oh how I love that man. A few hours later I woke up and realized I needed a warm cup of tea for my throat. We were suppose to go see my inlaws but Noah and I looked And felt awful. As soon as Fab saw me up he asked "u feeling good, I have some things I have to do, can u handle them". I heard the anxiety and desperation in his voice. Sadly, I have heard it before in my own voice. I wanted to say "no way buddy don't you see that I am sick!" Damn throat, I should really consider making a small kitchen in my bedroom for days like this. God, how I hated this man. So I bit the bullet, I stayed and made my own tea (in the past Fab would have made my tea) I laid on the couch and watched them. Two seconds later the boys realized I was back and it began. " mommy juice,......mommy I did a poppy can u wipe my booty.,.......mommy Noah's booty stinks you have to change his diaper........mommy we want a snack.......mommy! Mommmy!!!!!!! Even Puffball (my demanding cat) was meowing away. No more resting for mommy. No sick days for mommy. THANK GOD, they go to school tomorrow....oh that reminds me, back to work for ME.

Lucas, my smart prince charming

I know everyone says their kid is special, amazing, smart, one of a kind................and so on.  But our Lucas is SPECTACULAR.  I know he is mine and I am bias, BUT HE IS SPECTACULAR.  From the moment he was born, he was observing everything and rationalizing it all.  For a 5 year old he knows and asks questions that I am shocked to hear.  To some that have older kids, they might say their kids were the same way, but this is my first, I never had any before him so to me he is one of a kind.  For example, one day at school, his teacher said to me that he was not listening.  In the car drive home, I asked my Lucas "the teacher said you weren't listening, why baby?"  His response, "mommy. it just like the song says "baby I was born this way".  I was schocked. 

Another example is at school, a maintenance guy had come in to fix something, he was a big tall man, dark skin and had a beard.  One of the girls in his class said "teacher, he is scary".  Lucas said "he is not scary, he is just Spanish.".  You see Lucas is half Latin and half Italian (with some French).  In his mind the world contains two nationalities, Spanish and Italian, everyone is one or the other.  The Italians are light skin and all tan or dark skin are Spanish.  He went on to say "don't be scared, people are like a rainbow.  A rainbow is beautiful because of all the colors that it has just like people, they all come in different colors too, some are Spanish and some are Italians".  I heard the little girl looked confused but it seemed to calm her down.  Isn't he amazing, smart I tell you.

He has also discovered..................GIRLS, one in particular.  Let's just call her "Mia". Mia is in his class and is a really pretty girl.  She is quiet and a little shy and Lucas is in love.  He says that she is the most beautiful girl he has ever seen.  He says she runs like a rabbit, fast and he loves to watch her hop around.  One day, he came home with an assignment that he did not complete in class.  The teacher sent a note saying he did not listen and so did not finish his assignment.  His response was simple, "he could not finish it because he didn't understand it".  When Fabio asked "why didn't you raise your hand and ask the teacher to explain it again", Lucas said "because every time I raise my hand, Mia looks at me and I get shy".  He also says that "one day I will go on bended knee and declare my love to Mia".  Prince Charming has nothing on Lucas.  He seems to be in love with the sight of Mia.  I don't know if it's love at first sight but it is surely a crush. 

One day my grandmother was over and we put our wedding video for her to see it and Lucas sat and watched the whole thing.  At the end, he said "mommy you really loved daddy then............right mommy?  I don't think you love daddy anymore because you don't kiss him like that anymore".  He was right, there is no time to show daddy how much I love him.  Usually I am running around doing things that I don't have time to stop and kiss my Fabio and vice verse.  So since the, Fabio and I kiss (not passionately like at our wedding ) but in a way showing Lucas that we still love each other.  Maybe, that is why he is turning into prince charming.  Can never get it right I tell you.

We are Catholics and really really really try to go to church every Sunday but sometimes we can't make it.  I am slowly teaching Lucas about "Jesus".  At church one day, he asked me mommy "is Jesus a superhero".  I said "he kind of is, he went through a lot for us and if we believe in him,  and pray, he can make things happen".  Lucas said "but does he have super powers, like can he fly, can he see through walls?"  I said "no he doesn't but he has other kind of powers".  I couldn't come up with other things to say while trying to be quiet at church, so I said " I don't know baby, let's talk about this later".  He gave me a look and said "mommy you don't know a lot, you better pray to Jesus for wisdom".  So I prayed but I got nothing.