I want my mom.

Being a parent is tough. Along with that is working, keeping your marriage in check, keeping your house in order, maintainin your car, maintaining your own vehicle ( your body), keeping up with play dates, keeping up with school events and keeping up with your friendships. All of it is so much that I sometimes just want to get away from it all. I daydream being alone in a beautiful balcony by the beach where I can hear the waves and have my eyes close and feel the soft warm breeze....... And then I am awaken from that daydream to "mommy.........Claud..........mommy.......Claud......." These are also moments where I want my mommy. There is a song that says "I want to crawl back inside my mothers womb" from Ingrid michaelson". That is so true I would love to do that. I. Fact sometimes I want to do that to my children and do that to Fabio (obviously to his mothers womb not mine). I just remember taking for granted those moments where my mom would caress my hair or hold me in those tight warm hugs and now I want those all the time for strength for a break for a moment of Serenity. Maybe my children would want that one day. I think about my mom saying that now she has all the time in the world and wishes she could have those moments back. I know I will also feel that way in the future where time will pass me by and I will regret complaining about my chaotic life now. I tell that to myself and then I daydream about the beach , about the breeze, about Kevin Bacon......oops I have said too much. 😄