The power of three has taught me so many things and shown me that I was living the wrong way. Here are the many reasons why life now....is better than it ever was.
1. Cursing.......
I have never been a girl with a dirty mouth. Nope, not me. Ask anyone who knew me in elementary, high school and college. I did not say bad words. My parents never did so I didn't either. When Lucas came I knew that I would enforce it on my husband (who needed help in that department). We did wonderful, never cursed in front of them or away from them. (He tried :( poor guy). Noah came And I was close to letting them out but I held my tongue. Even Fabio got better except for that time the pipes burst in the office and the kids learned the "Shit" word over and over again in case they didn't get it the first few times. But I digress, we were doing excellent. Enter our precious Milah. She is a great baby and very easy but it's the other two in combination with her that have driven me to the edge. I curse...yes I do and I love it. I am all day swearing, fuck this fuck that, screw him...screw you....pick a lane asshole.....all of the wonderful words that I never knew before. I knew them but i didn't know how they felt. I didn't know how they would make me feel. They release all the tension and built up anger that I always kept inside. I don't want to lose it with my kids. I still don't curse in front of them (well I actually do say "shit" sometimes but hey they have already been exposed to that from their father so I say it's a freebee). I feel energized when I let out the curses I feel liberated. Might sound crazy to some but hey I did warn you I am crazy. So who gives a shit. 😄
2 I never said the lords name in vain. People would laugh at me in college if someone ever said his name in vain. I quickly would do the sign of the cross. Now, Jesus is in my mouth all day every day. "Jesus help me". "Jesus, please make these kids go to bed". Jesus, eat your damn food". You like how I combined 1 and 2 together. Ok, I know Jesus might not be happy with this but he gave me three, I think he knew what may happen.
3. Who Cares!!!!! I use to worry if my kids made a scene, or hurt someone's feeling, or talked back. They are going to think I am a bad mother....they probably think I don't care or that I am working mom and thats why my kids acts like that. You know what.......who cares. If you have kids, you have been there, if you don't have kids you will be there too and if you are old and don't remember let me help you out you were there too. I am more relax now, I pick up my screaming kid, I yell at the smart one that's talking back and tell him you just wait till we get home and I apologize for my kid, make him apologize and never have the play date again. I don't want to be reminded of that
4 I can always be late. If I have to go somewhere or be somewhere I use the three kid card. "I am sorry I have three kids and it was hard getting them all ready". I always get the sympathy look which inside I am sure they are saying why the hell did I have three. I used to care about the sympathy card but if you have read number 3 you know I don't care. I use it to my advantage.
5 Recently we lost my sweet puffball, our cat who was 17 years old. Some may say, use sometime to grieve but no I couldn't if I even thought about the loss of puffball I would have needed to be hospitalized so instead I got a dog. Friends and coworkers say I am crazy. My husband thinks I am crazy. I am, I agree but I wanted to bring happiness into my kids eyes again so I added more work for myself and it was worth it.
6 Boob job. Yes after nursing three kids I have been left with nothing that only a Victoria secret bra can only revive. I would have never thought of surgery back in the day but I never thought my breast will be what they are today. So I said to Fabio a lift would be greatly appreciated. No objections on his part.
7 we will get there when we get there. Yes, back in the day Fabio and I would rush everywhere. We would be the first ones there and would be all stressed out. Now, we get there when we get there. Yes we try to be on time but we also don't get stressed. Wherever we go, when they see us walk in with our entourage they know why we are late.
8 I am a hero. I get looks and comments when I walk in with my 7, 4 and 6 month old. They look at me like I have gone to war. They give me extra time to fill out the paper work, they bumped me up on the line before my kids go crazy and disturb their beautiful ambiance. They change the channel to cartoons so my kids are quiet too. I get special treatment and I get told I am super woman. They say, wow you work full time, have three kids and are a wife, you are amazing. Some may get insulted but like I said in number 3....who cares.
9 My house is a mess and I don't apologize. Listen I work full time, I have three kids, a dog, a cat and a bird who is going to outlive us and Lucas and his family will have to take care of her. I also cook home cook meals every day but Fridays because it's pizza night. Yes we eat at 7 pm but I cook. I do have a cleaning lady but she only comes once a month which reminds me I have to have her come twice a month. The house still gets dirty and toys and clothes are all over the place. But I don't care because I try to do my best and I also don't invite anyone over.
10. Finally, Fabio and I get along better. Yes we have our arguments and our fights but we are better. Maybe because we know we are stuck for life. Who else would understand our life better than us and we know that we couldn't do this crazy life alone and it wouldn't be fun without each other. After all, we created this life.
Since 12/22/13 I have three children, lost a cat and gained a dog. My life is chaotic but it sure is entertaining. Yes I am crazy but I wasn't living until....... now.
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