I quit!!!!!!

I quit being a mother and wife today....I mean only for a few hours. I had just about had enough!!!  I couldn't do it anymore!!!  If one more person complained to me or asked me for anything including the dog I think I would have yelled so hard that steam would have come out of my ears and my head would have exploded just like a cartoon!!

We just had gotten home from a being in the soccer field for Lucas soccer games. We had left the house at 7:10am and didn't get home until 1 pm. I was sweaty, hungry, thirsty and just tired of it all!!!  I always bring a whole bag of snacks to the field because everyone suddenly gets hungry when we are at the field. The minute I set up the chairs and sit down to watch my oldest play soccer the other two are suddenly hungry even though Fabio had just made a huge breakfast and they had seconds and thirds. The minute they see mommy sitting and actually relaxing they remember they are hungry, thirsty and all of sudden find bruises or cuts in their bodies that they believe are actually there but they are not. They had never even mentioned the invisible cut or bruises but the minute mommy sits down all of a sudden they appear and then they want a band aid, medicine and mommy to tend to it. Everything bothers them including the sun shinning in their face and the ant that is no where near them but they swear the ant is coming for them. And then there's the husband who cannot bring water himself so then he asks you for water and you are like" I didn't pack an extra one for you". I packed for all the kids and one for myself but I won't even drink that extra bottle in case one of the kids gets extra thirsty and I have to give that one away. I won't even eat anything in fear that if I eat an apple....if I eat the green apple that all of a sudden after eating everything in the bag they decide that the green apple is just what they need and it has to be green, it can't be yellow or red, IT HAS TO BE GREEN!!!!  So now my darling husband you will die of thirst like I do every soccer season just in case we run out of water and that last bottle is desperately needed to avoid that tantrum that surely will have every mom and dad look at me and wonder "why would she not come prepare.... Poor kids"!!!!

On top of it all all, I am going through teenage acne. I'm serious!!!  For some reason, the acne has somehow picked a favorite place to settle in...my nose and not only my nose but the tip of my nose. It's like it wants everyone to see that it beat me.  It wants to say hi, to be acknowledged that it has invade my nose.  I never suffered with acne as a child or teenager but suddenly I'm 40 and the acne thinks now is the time to come and let it be shown And it actually hurts. So there I am in the soccer field with red acne in the tip of my nose sweating profusely with no water and no green apple!!!!!  

We get home and everyone is complaining they are hungry. So I quickly warm up some left overs and say "see ya....I'm going to take a big long nap and I will see you guys later this evening". This is when I know I married the right man. Yes, he can't bring water for himself and always forgets to take the recycling out but at this moment...this precise moment he reminded me why I still love him. He said nothing....did nothing.... He let me go. He actually let me go to my room, close the door and quit being a mom and a wife. He knew I needed time off to readjust/unwind and come back as my old self. 

I closed my bedroom door took two Benadryl and slept like a baby. Why Benadryl you ask?  Because if I don't force myself to sleep, I will not sleep. I will be thinking under my covers of all the things I should be doing instead of sleeping. I will think of how much laundry, ironing and decluttering I have to do.  I would be filled of guilt that would literally wake me up and leave me more exhausted than I was.  It's not healthy for me and the kids. I needed to shut down completely and I did!!!  I got up at 6pm and felt great. I took a shower and watched the last half hour of bad moms!!!  I love that movie. I remember my mom saying that when she was a young mom it was frown upon to complain of being a mom, no one said a thing. No one complained about exhaustion, laundry, cleaning, cooking and no one ever said anything bad about their kids. She said that women are lucky today that they can talk to each other of how hard it is to be a mom and wife not to mention working at the same time. No wonder so many of those moms have nervous break downs later in life like my mom did. They bottle up all that frustration and exhaustion that it comes pouring out later in life.   

I came out of room at 630pm and there were toys everywhere. The kids ran to hug me screaming how much they miss me and how much they loved me. Surprisingly no one complained they were hungry and then I saw the open tortilla chip bag that was almost all gone. Oh well, I made dinner and they ate, took showers, Milah is sleeping and now we are watching TV together while Noah cleans up all the toys. He is the one that creates all the mess. It looks like the play room threw up all over my house but Thankfully it's being cleaned up.  

Even though it was a hard day, exhausting actually, and even though I still have acne in my nose I always try to look at the bright side. I have kids who understand and respect when mommy needs a time out, I have a husband who supports me and let's me have a time out without any guilt and in the dark my red nose helps me find my way since it shines up like Rudolph. 

So moms take some time off, your family will survive without you!!!!  I promise!!!