Waiting and waiting and waiting.

There is nothing people hate more than getting to a doctors appointment on time and waiting hours to be seen. I actually don't mind. I get to just relax and sit for awhile thinking of nothing. I watch everyone else complain and I sit and read. It's really the only time I have to myself. That is not the case when it comes to appointments for the kids. That is when I do complain and plead with the nurses to please let me in before my kids loose their minds and I get all the dirty looks directed at me. This time I had the privilege of having Fabio go with me. He has not gone to the doctor appointments with me since the boys were really little. "It will be nice to take the boys to the Doctors as a family....don't u think Claud". I just laugh an evil laugh inside. "Sure Fab". We had to go to Lucas orthopedic doctor. Lucas had broken a small bone on his left arm a year ago and we were coming back to have it X-ray to make sure it had healed well. The waiting room was full but there were three empty chairs close to each other and one far away. I chose the one far away hoping no one knew I was with them. Lucas gave it away when he called me "mommy" I tried to ignore him but that would be mean. The movie "toy story" was on but finished as soon as we got there. "Damn it". Fabio saw the lollipops and decided to give one to each of the kids. Noah just needs a little sugar and he is nuts. Five minutes later Noah began playing musical chairs and then the man near him moved and offered me his chair and I offered him mine (my heart was breaking). Fabio decided to read Lucas a "national geographic" magazine but lucas kept asking so many questions I could see Fabio getting frustrated after 20 minutes of it. Noah kept playing the musical chair and dancing and singing. The dirty looks kept coming. Fabio got so frustrated that he told Lucas "ok Lucas you are six years old now and you can read this magazine yourself daddy is taking a break" Lucas said"but daddy I don't know how to read this magazine". Fabio got dirty looks I would have intervene but chose to share the love. Poor Lucas he just began reading and his daddy wanted him to read a national geographic magazine with words I probably can't read myself. Trying to control his frustration Fabio got up and ate like 10 lollipops. He then asked the nurse if the movie can be replayed and thank God they put it back on. The boys sat and watched. Then Noah began asking for food again thank God I carry numerous snacks just for Noah (Lucas never asks for them). This went on for half an hour when the nurse said "Lucas". We all jumped with excitement as if we had won a prize. "Oh sorry Lucas will be next". I gave her the dirtiest look. Twenty minutes later they finally called us. We had gotten there on time and were not seen till almost an hour later and it still was not over. We go in the waiting room and Lucas and Noah go nuts. They start trying to touch everything and all of a sudden one of them starts farting. We don't know which one it was because then the doctor comes in and I am sure was completely surprised at the smell he walked into. He begins talking and then explains how someone else will come in to take Lucas for an X-ray.....more waiting and now we are stuck in a smelly room with the two crazy kids. Fifteen minutes later they come get Lucas and Fabio quickly jumps at the chance to leave the smelly room. I was hoping he had taken the smelly kid with him but I actually had him in the room with me and I guess all the chips, apple, banana and lollypops gave him gas. When they returned and entered the room ten minutes later Fabio and Lucas covered their faces and Lucas said "mommy this room smells" and the doctor walked in right after. I hoped he knew it was not me but the little guy still running around and singing in the room. When we finally were told we could leave I went the check out desk and apologized to them for that smelly room and asked if I had a co-pay. I knew I did but they probably wanted us to leave so badly that they would bill me later for it. I am sure Fabio will no longer want to attend these appointments with us but it was gratifying to know that now he knows why after these appointments I am always cranky and exhausted. We got in the car and Noah says "I want to eat pasta". It never ends.

I want my mom.

Being a parent is tough. Along with that is working, keeping your marriage in check, keeping your house in order, maintainin your car, maintaining your own vehicle ( your body), keeping up with play dates, keeping up with school events and keeping up with your friendships. All of it is so much that I sometimes just want to get away from it all. I daydream being alone in a beautiful balcony by the beach where I can hear the waves and have my eyes close and feel the soft warm breeze....... And then I am awaken from that daydream to "mommy.........Claud..........mommy.......Claud......." These are also moments where I want my mommy. There is a song that says "I want to crawl back inside my mothers womb" from Ingrid michaelson". That is so true I would love to do that. I. Fact sometimes I want to do that to my children and do that to Fabio (obviously to his mothers womb not mine). I just remember taking for granted those moments where my mom would caress my hair or hold me in those tight warm hugs and now I want those all the time for strength for a break for a moment of Serenity. Maybe my children would want that one day. I think about my mom saying that now she has all the time in the world and wishes she could have those moments back. I know I will also feel that way in the future where time will pass me by and I will regret complaining about my chaotic life now. I tell that to myself and then I daydream about the beach , about the breeze, about Kevin Bacon......oops I have said too much. 😄

A never ending birthday

What ever happened to having your birthday in your " birth day" for that one day. For my Lucas who turned six yesterday his birthday began on Thursday and ended today. Fabio and I are so tired and so is the birthday boy and his side kick, his brother Noah. In fact Noah who is three didn't care who's birthday it was, he just saw cake, a piñata and pizza and that was it for him, he was invited, he was there and he had a blast. This fiasco began Thursday when I surprised Lucas at school. I volunteer to help our a his class valentines day party and he was so happy. The next day mommy dropped off cupcakes, 10 pink ones with princess rings and 10 light blue ones with superhero rings (all requested by Lucas). Then Lucas was surprised by Fabio who was the secret reader of the day. At the bus stop Lucas was so thrilled to tell me about his fabulous day I then proceeded to take him to toys r us for Noah to pick something out for Lucas. Two hours later we got home for dinner. The next day was filled with Lucas doing what ever he liked, he requested to eat empanadas ( a Spanish treat) all day and he ate it all day. Later in the day, Fabio took Lucas to best buy after Lucas requested to get the skylanders game for his bday. He came home and played and played with daddy. Noah had no idea what video games were he just wanted the figurines and kept stealing them. Lucas was not so happy about that. On Sunday the celebration began, his grandparents arrived from upstate followed by his aunt, uncle, his cousins and his other set of grandparents (my mom and dad) Lucas was beyond excited. His day ( or days) had finally come and he was enjoying every bit of it. The party began win pizza and more empanadas and then the piñata (hoping the candy rush would wear out by the time the party was over so bedtime would be effortless but it wasn't). Then followed "the pin the tail in the donkey" ( the adults played as well). After, we had cake and open presents (Lucas wired with all the candy and being a little bit selfish complained that he didn't get enough toys). I was embarrassed by his reaction but thank God my family was only there. We then did karaoke. I thought the boys would not enjoy it but they got all into it. I mean they really did so did the adults. My sister and I even did "girls just want to have fun" and it was a blast. Then I remember I had a party to attend to. The celebration ended and then bedtime came. Lucas fell asleep fast but our little Noah the party animal did not fall asleep till an hour after Lucas. Noah is a tough party animal, so afraid for his future college years.
Then today his grandparents (Fabios parents) decided to take Lucas and Noah to toys r us so Lucas can pick out one more toy. So we all got in the minivan and went to the big toy store. I was about to pass out. Lucas picked so many different toys and put them in the cart so he could decide later which one he wanted. His poor father kept trying to convince him to get sport toys but all Lucas wanted was superheroes. Noah grab on to a box of power rangers and didn't let go (his grandparents bought it for him, he knew they would). At the end after fighting and pleading with Lucas to please pick a toy Lucas (with help from his father) decided on super Mario Wii game. Fabio and I have always agree on no video games for our kids. But after much talking about it we decided to get it for him. We didn't want him to be left out and now I know why we didn't want it. Lucas had a break down. In the middle of the super Mario game after numerous attempts to not fall off the trail Lucas collapsed on the floor and wept. My birthday boy had closed shop. I carried him brushed his teeth and without a word (ok maybe pleading a little to play more but I ignored it so it doesn't count) he passed out. Noah u ask? Noah also passed out an hour earlier after some pleading not to go to bed but he closed shop shortly after. So now I am in bed exhausted and thankful that the birthday celebration has come to an end and all goes back to normal tomorrow. Thank God Fabio and I are on vacation this week. Tomorrow potty train begins for Noah. Pray for us.