Breathe Claudia....Breathe

I always wanted to do what I am doing now.  Always....always.  I went to school for this and knew from the time that I was a child that this was the field I wanted.  Due to its sensitivity, I cannot say what I do but I love it.  I never thought of kids, marriage or anything of the sort, I was focused on my career but that all changed when I met "Fabio".  I met my "Fabs" as I like to call him on 1/30/99.  I had just graduated from college and was home in Brooklyn, NY, my friend Leslie, Aimee and my sister, Aura decided to take me out to celebrate at a bar in Long Island.  He asked me to dance and I giggle when he said his name (I know you giggled too) and he showed me his license to prove it and I stopped giggling.  We have been dancing ever since.  We dated for 4 years, were engaged for a year and now have been married for almost 8.  Now, we have two boys ages, 2 and 5 and I often wonder how we got here so quickly. 

I was raised in a very traditional hispanic upbringing.  My parents, sisters and I are very close, so close that I so wished for my mother and not Fabs to have been there when I gave birth to my two kids.  I would have said my daddy too but he would have probably fainted.  My parents raised their three girls to dream and dream...to be a career woman and never let anything stop you.  They taught us manners and responsibility.  We knew we had to go to college and make something of ourselves but they left one thing out MOTHERHOOD.  YES, THESE WONDERFUL PARENTS DID NOT SAY HOW HAAAAAARRRRD THIS WOULD BE.  I don't know if they purposely left that out so as to not deter us from having kids but they did.  I think they should have told us this "Girls not only do you have to have a successful career but you have to have at least two kids and be great mothers to them, but you also have to be an excellent cook, know how to do the laundry, keep the house cleaned, be a wonderful caring wife to your husband, be nice to others, smile pretty, be well groomed and most of all APPEAR to have everything under control.......... To that I just have to say to myself "Breathe Claudia....Breathe". 
Yes, they missed that and you know why because they had the last thing so perfectly hidden "APPEAR TO HAVE EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL".  YES, that's what I do....ask my friends who always ask "claudia, how do you do it all"......and now my secret is out.....I don't have everything under control.....I gave up on lists because I forget where I put them.....I gave up on alarms on my phones because I snooze them.....I am just a mess.  As you will see this Super Agent mom has nothing in order and maybe with your help and these blogs....I can get to at least smile pretty AND PRETEND I GOT IT ALL UNDER CONTROL. 

BREATHE CLAUDIA....BREATHE.